Once again I'm left reminiscing about Philly days. Sigh* Missing my homies back In the PI and it just gets harder every time I'm caught up in the mode. It's sad missing out alot on my own homeland, just wanting to stay there a lil more longer than ever. If only...
Missed the noise, traffic, busy streets, good food, concerts, stupid night outs and endless starbuck-ing moments. wooh!
Dreaming of a time when one day I'll be home for good. Close to my loved ones, close to my family, ang Pilipinas kong mahal! =(
So weekend just ended, yet another uncertain week to face. Yea quite a lot of times I find myself dry and uninspired for the past few days now. Been messin' up alot of times, ticking off people and just find that I couldn't be bothered by all that. Challenges certainly come at the wrong time and place sometimes. So once again, I call this a "slap on the face" experience.
"You live you learn, you love you learn, you cry you learn, you lose you learn, you bleed you learn, you scream you learn." - Alanis Morisette
Yea.. I get that a lot of times. I tend to injure myself severely before I even realize what a stupid mess It would've been if I didn't have to get myself caught up. I get along pretty well with pain even though it kills but I just don't understand why I keep getting myself emotionally screwed up when I have the choice not to. Yea that's pretty much me. You'd prolly think, "Dude, just get a life and do something about it" haha... working on it!
Working on it?!? sure! It's easier said than done. Sigh* Few days ago, we were asked about what were some of the challenges we faced during the past weeks. Got me thinking, and it all summed up to FAITH. Everything I struggled with dealt with it. Patience, shaking off bad-habits, trust and so on. It certainly got me crawling back and forth and I'm just sick and tired of falling into the same pit over and over again. Facing the same mistakes, doing the same "kickin-butt" routine and what not.
Turned out, I was over analyzing FAITH. A Pastor at a Sunday church service once said, "You can't analyze faith, only the Holy Spirit has its way in building that lil' faith in you. A small-tinny-itsy-bitsy-teeny-weeny faith can't move a big mountain on its own, but we can start moving a tiny pebble instead. Start small and end somewhere NOT Start big and end nowhere."
Takes a lot of faith to let God be God. Meaning, to let Him be at the steering wheel and to trust Him completely. Doesn't matter where He'll take me or how far it takes to get there, the Lord sure knows where He's going and I am desperate to find out.
Going back, letting go of the strongholds I've got Isn't always easy and I gotta hand it to ya, It's darn PAINFUL. Especially when that one thing you've got in your hands is too precious but ain't just right at this present time - God's will. Faith, faith and faith is all it takes...
© Blogger templates ProBlogger Template by Ourblogtemplates.com 2008
Back to TOP
