20 minutes
I just wanna declare that MY GOD IS A GREAT BIG GOD AND AN AWESOME GOD!!! WOOT!
Last night while I was having my quite time at approximately 11:15pm God has revealed to me a vision supported with verses in the book of John, Psalm and Proverbs. This vision has been around for quite some time now but never taken seriously. I just never really understood what God was trying to show me till' last night. A tap on the shoulders was how God gained my attention.
John 14:5-7 sez:
"I am the vine, and you are the branches. If you stay joined to me, and I stay joined to you, then you will produce lots of fruit. But you cannot do anything without me. If you don't stay joined to me, you will be thrown away. You will be like dry branches that are gathered up and burned in fire. Stay joined to me and let my teaching become part of you. Then you can pray for whatever you want"
Psalm 37:34 sez:
"Wait passionately for God,
Proverbs 13:12 sez:
"Unrelenting disappointment leaves you heartsick, but a sudden good break can turn life around."
God honestly spoke to me through these verses. Such an awesome experience it was to just simply come before Him, for once not speaking a word, but simply keeping silent to give way for him to speak to me. Never have I felt such Joy and Comfort within me. The moment was real and felt such warmth in His presence. It's such a wonderful encounter with my God, my Friend, my dad and the lover of my soul. Truly amazing what He did to my life in just 20 mints of my time. It completely changed the entire me and when I say change, it was definitely a good change.
I have always wanted to be closer to my God, to build an intimate relationship and to have such an inseparable friendship with. But over the years, I found it so difficult and tiring. Tiring for me to look for Him in places where He is no where to be found, nor heard. Like as though I was just fooling myself most of the time. Like I was talking to thin air. But I realized that I was talking too much most of the time. Like ALWAYS blabbering about complaints, pouring out anger and annoyance and just simply talkin' about non-sense. I was just too impatient to wait for His response and end up doin' my own thing. But in that 20 mints, the Lord said to me:
"Wait passionately for God,
Passionately was the word! It's just like Sleeping Beauty having the desire to wait for Her Prince to come and give her a kiss to wake her up from the nasty spell which was cast on her. And my eyes have been pretty much shut closed most of the time. Waiting on God hasn't been the same for me.
But as it is written in John 14:
"Stay joined to me and let my teaching become part of you. Then you can pray for whatever you want"
These words He spoke to me was the Kiss He gave me that opened my eyes. The Lord wants me to stay with Him and cling on to Him for He has surely brought me here today for an adventurous ride of Salvation. And so I prayed a prayer:
"Lord, my savior, I come before you. Here I am, all yours. Take me. Work in me. I am passionately yearning for you to re-construct my heart. Use me in your own will and may your will be done."
Silence surrounded the room.
Then slowly He held my hands to turn the pages of the bible and led me to the Book of Proverbs:
"Unrelenting disappointment leaves you heartsick, but a sudden good break can turn life around."
My life certainly changed. In 20 mints of my time, surely that was an amazing break. My daddy Jesus already took me on a joy ride to salvation. It sure wasn't enough and left me yearning for Him even more.
Then He left me with a vision. A vision that I have seen before but never took on seriously. When I asked my God to re-construct my heart, He reminded me of the passion I used to have. The Lord has given me the heart for the broken, the lost and the poor. Whenever the Lord puts me in a situation where I dealt with being around the people who were lost and broken, my heart would ache. Like as though I've just been through a break-up in a relationship. It would hurt as much as I see the people who are homeless and have not enough food to eat. This is where the Lord has taken me to see. What He has set in my heart. And so I prayed another prayer:
"Lord, if this is what you set in my heart, lead me to the direction you are taking me. Show me the route to take so I could walk your walk."
It's been years that the Lord has been telling me this, but I just never thought of listening to Him. Yearly, SAC would have mission trips to different parts of the world. Most of the time, my excuse would be either because I am having my exams or that I would be away for a vacation. Didn't think I'd be ready for anything that BIG. Missions was something i never took seriously but for one, end up regretting for not being able to go to. The feeling of having that opportunity waisted was devastating. Therefore, again! The Lord revealed to me the word M.I.S.S.I.O.N.S.
Yip! The vision for mission.. WOW! When the Lord said this to me, I was left with the feeling of joy right from the heart. Which was pretty unusual for me compared to my previous reactions as to having said that I have to go for missions. It is pretty exciting as I have never been in any missions before.
My God is surely amazing and I can't wait to serve Him in the will He has set for me. And I am continuously praying for this. My dearest daddy Jesus is so good and His mercy endures forever. Amen!
