There's one in all of us...
Right now... no! scrap that - This past few days... there's this lil' monster that's taking a whole lot of me. A whoOOle LOT! This lil' bugger's got me from tip to toe. Not sure for how long but I certainly wanna get rid of it real quick.
Not in the mood to talk to anyone about it. Don't really care. You see? There it is at me - teaching that lil' dunno-don-care attitude that snaps right back atcha.
Oh and great! Starting my morning today was rather irritating. Got someone yelling "You're so FAT" at me today and guess what the lil monster in me wanted to do? Strangle? Kick? Slap? GRrrr... Believe the idiot!!! I would've done all the above but I wasn't exactly fit to do all the lil stunts. Jeez...
Honestly! I am not feeling so good - not just about that insult I had this morning - but about ALOT of things. Specifically Me-myself-and-I! Times when I just wanna be alone because chances are when you're probably with me now - I might just even hurt you with my words - not really physically. :P And mind you - I have actually hurt someone many times with my mouth and I just don't ever want that to happen again.
I'm trying to find myself in this situation, What's in my heart. Nobody wants to be the bad guy, although sometimes i do feel i am and it's killing me. I'm feeling a lot of pain for not treating people right and being downright honest with them. I'm tired of pleasing people and to even care what the heck their thinking about. Certainly these are just the times when I don't really wanna care about what people think of me. Or should I? Ahhh snap! This is it. This is what I'm talking about..
I'm hoping this is just a phase I have to go through. Deal with. Learn from. Stay away from? I'm not sure about the last point. I haven't really stayed away from it since the last time I've actually felt this way. Even after having someone to give me comforting advices. At some point, i just end up feeling this way over and over again. Like syit!
Ahhh... bullocks! This is just how that lil' monster in me looks like. I'd like to think of it as cute. I'm not sure what this is telling me about ME. But somehow, reading the story about this lil' boy in "Where the wild things are", just tames that monster in me. It's this irritating adventure I have to go through in life at 21.
I don't wanna keep trying to be a better person - I want to do all things good by being a good person - that pleases my Father in heaven. This is it! My challenge...
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Not in the mood to talk to anyone about it. Don't really care. You see? There it is at me - teaching that lil' dunno-don-care attitude that snaps right back atcha.
Oh and great! Starting my morning today was rather irritating. Got someone yelling "You're so FAT" at me today and guess what the lil monster in me wanted to do? Strangle? Kick? Slap? GRrrr... Believe the idiot!!! I would've done all the above but I wasn't exactly fit to do all the lil stunts. Jeez...
Honestly! I am not feeling so good - not just about that insult I had this morning - but about ALOT of things. Specifically Me-myself-and-I! Times when I just wanna be alone because chances are when you're probably with me now - I might just even hurt you with my words - not really physically. :P And mind you - I have actually hurt someone many times with my mouth and I just don't ever want that to happen again.
I'm trying to find myself in this situation, What's in my heart. Nobody wants to be the bad guy, although sometimes i do feel i am and it's killing me. I'm feeling a lot of pain for not treating people right and being downright honest with them. I'm tired of pleasing people and to even care what the heck their thinking about. Certainly these are just the times when I don't really wanna care about what people think of me. Or should I? Ahhh snap! This is it. This is what I'm talking about..
I'm hoping this is just a phase I have to go through. Deal with. Learn from. Stay away from? I'm not sure about the last point. I haven't really stayed away from it since the last time I've actually felt this way. Even after having someone to give me comforting advices. At some point, i just end up feeling this way over and over again. Like syit!
Ahhh... bullocks! This is just how that lil' monster in me looks like. I'd like to think of it as cute. I'm not sure what this is telling me about ME. But somehow, reading the story about this lil' boy in "Where the wild things are", just tames that monster in me. It's this irritating adventure I have to go through in life at 21.
I don't wanna keep trying to be a better person - I want to do all things good by being a good person - that pleases my Father in heaven. This is it! My challenge... 
