A Breath of Purpose

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

A Wake-up Call

One evening, I was awakened by a disturbing dream. I dreamt that I was at the highest floor of a very big castle and darkness was all that surrounded me. Looking down, all I could see was a bit of light that glowed from under, between the spiral staircase in which I stood unto. The dream was rather indistinct as I could only remember very little. But, this dream was a total scare as it felt so real. I recall falling from the highest floor, gravity pulling me down even in my sleep. I try to get out of the dream but I couldn’t even move. Felt like as though something was holding me back on the bed where I lay. I then started to say my prayers in the name of Jesus. It started to feel warm around and I heard whispers coming from a woman’s voice. I heard a soft voice saying “hello” repeatedly which felt so close to my ears…

…quickly got up with a big gasp of air and reached for my bible. I continuously said my prayers and was lead to a verse which God spoke to me in the book of Psalms 27.

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.

3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confident.

4 One thing I ask of the LORD,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.

5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle
and set me high upon a rock.

6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.

7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.

8 My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"
Your face, LORD, I will seek.

9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
O God my Savior.

10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.

11 Teach me your way, O LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.

12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
breathing out violence.

13 I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.

14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.

Reading this powerful chapter is a realization. It showed how weak and dry I’ve been in my relationship with God lately and I was reminded by how much HE loves me no matter how much I’ve hurt Him. I have been so occupied at work and been busy worrying about how my tomorrow is going to be like. It’s like reading a book by skipping chapters and just being anxious about how the story is going to end. Doing so, the story just gets even more twisted. And that’s just how it’s been for me lately, lost and exhausted. Exhausted looking for answers to my questions and lost that I’ve been looking in the wrong places.

This verse is simply the answer and the dream which I had was a total wake-up call. I’ve been drawn away from the light that God has provided me and in my dream the darkness represented it all. The fear I faced was how little faith I had to face situations and because God knows me better than anyone else, He certainly knows when to catch me when i fall. God truly saves and believe me when I say He loves You! His love is the most amazing thing you'll ever experience in life. =) I pray that someday you'll experience this wonderful feeling, to be loved by Him and to Love in return.

Friday, November 23, 2007

Holiday fever is ON!

Exactly 12 days in counting and I’m all ready to go to the PI. Yes baby! My hometown Pilipinas!!! ^_^ Can’t wait! Can’t wait! While I’m here at work, obviously my lazy head isn’t and I so wish I didn’t have to go to work this weekend. Not Good! Not so good that I’ll be working this weekend. Oh well, maybe I’ll just daydream about the holidays so I won’t realize the pressure at work. Haha…nice!

Christmas is just around the corner too. Woohoo! Again, Can’t wait! Of course celebrating Christmas in the PI is so much more exciting. I get to spend it with my loved ones back in my hometown. Oooh.. so exciting! Hehe… Can’t wait to set foot in my grand parent’s home where the good food is always found. Mmm…Yummy! Lola (which is Grand ma in tagalog), don’t forget to make some of your special Mango Refrigerated Cakes when we get there. HAHA.. Ok! Ok! I’ll come and help you make for everyone else. Mmm…

Plus! My cousin on my mom’s side is getting married on the 15^thDec at Marinduque. It’s a beautiful place outskirt Manila which we haven’t visited for more than 7 years already. We have to travel by boat to get there and God willing it’ll be a sunny day. This is where some of the beautiful beaches are located, just beautiful...

On the other hand, My hometown has its beautiful side too. Mabuhay Pilipinas!

Manila City (Day)

Manila City (Night)

Manila Cathedral

v Mapa

Of course theres so much more to this but this is all i could share for the mean time. I owe you guys lotsa pictures and I promise I’ll post it up as soon I as I get em’…In 12 DAYS time!!! ^_^

God Bless

Monday, November 19, 2007

Camera Shy? Pfft..

So, PDS School is celebrating its 15th year anniversary this 23rd November and I was invited to be a part of it. How? To be in an interview! My first reaction was like, “You must be freakin’ kidding right?!?” I am and never was good with video cameras and the two of us never get along so easily. You give me a camera is FINE, but not INFRONT of a Video Cam. LOL. So, did I have a choice? HAHA.. Hell No! I had to go with it dead or alive. Haha..ok ok!

Questionnaires were handed 2 days before hand and I went completely blank. Managed to prepare only the night before and what do you know, that’s when my brain started working. Haha.. Memories started flashing back and it just left me smiling. Talk about a maniac smiling to herself. Pfft… =P My 11 years with the school had been crazy amazing. Never thought I could have gone this far. I recall having to wear my first tutu at the age of 5 and feeling lazy to take them off after classes.

Pictures, Pictures, Pictures! They leave a lot of memories to day dream about. Haiz* those were the days, where you just miss being a student again. But oh well, time sure flies. Will share some pics when i get the time...

So how did the interview go? Surprisingly not so bad, haha! Earlier that morning, before heading to the studio I was surprised the butterflies didn’t visit my stomach. Pfft..LAME! In other words, wasn’t feeling consciously nervous. AHAHAH… In fact, this was the first time I ever started liking being in front of a video camera. Hmmm.. must practice more. OH PEH-LEASE! =P It was fun and certainly exciting despite all other things. I thank God for the opportunity and will MOST-DEFFIENITLE watch the vid during the grad ceremony. Haha..