Tuesday, September 8, 2009

The girl in the Mirror


Today I came home asking myself what people actually see when they look at a Filipina girl like me staying in a country which is not my own. I've been told ones, not by one but many others that when one of your kind does something tremendously bad that reflects your race, the other people of the same kind reveals a stinky reputation to the eyes of many.

Perhaps a quarter of the population of Filipina girls found around the other parts of the world has a reputation which Isn't very pleasing to many. And just because of that, alota people would quickly judge the rest of the Filipina's based on what they know or may think they know.

It's quite heart breaking to feel as though you're being looked down at just because of your race. Especially in a country which outnumbers you by many other races. Truly it Isn't just because most of the Filipinas you know who are awful at many things means every single one of us are equally the same. Remember that we are just any other human on earth who Isn't perfect.

I have been living in Brunei since the age of 1 and quite frankly I've made both good and bad relationships with many different races. I have never quite actually been treated badly due to my race yet but growing up things just started to look so much different. Even though I've been brought up almost my entire life here, i can differentiate quickly how we are treated so differently to the other races. Differently in terms of trust issues.

Often i hear a lot of stories about other Filippina Women being hooked up in juicy stories as Mistresses, Hookers, Users, Liars, Abusers to their employers and other awful stuff you hear within the country they stay in. This in fact breaks my heart to know that because of these issues, most of my people are looked at this way and I don't blame those who can't seem to trust us easily.

I pray that this issue would be fixed. Where no racism occurs in our midst. Though i am still hurt by the issue, I will stand tall and strong. What lesson would this give? How can I help to solve the problem? Would I have the heart for my people too? Do i remain embarrassed about the situation or should I be brave enough to do something about it?

Guess this is the only thing which I am not proud about my race...

Heartbroken will I remain...

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Sunday, August 23, 2009

So Damn Occupied

Excuse me for not being able to update this place. I've been MIA simply because of work. And I won't be able to fill this place up for any updates until September I suppose. =(

Overall, I've been well and healthy. I honestly thank God for family & Friends at this state of time. =)

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Monday, July 13, 2009

Maybe I should

and 5, 6, 7, 8... *Bones cracking* :(

Terrible! at the age of soon-to-be 22 already i feel like 82. My dancing skills need real polishing. I'm so out of shape and for the past couple of days I've been watching "So you think you can dance" I feel like I should've pursued my dance training and never have stopped after high school. They're just so inspiring and its giving me that motivation to go a lil' step forward.

Teaching dance and learning dance has a whole lot of difference in many ways. Right now i just want to be a student once again. I need new ideas, fresh techniques and a whole lota warm ups (with more discipline and push in excelling one self) :)

Ok! So I've been thinking... Maybe I should take this seriously. Like apply myself in a dance school where dance is seriously taken. It's just my time management with everything else that goes around that's bugging me right now. haha... God willing I can pursue this thing I love doing most! hehe...

Anyways, here's a vid of a guy named Alex Bullon with extreme talent!



Observe the little kid on his right. haha..so adorable! ;)

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Wednesday, July 8, 2009

a lil dose of tranquility


After awhile of not blogging, it gets to a point when you don't even know how to start or even name a post anymore. Anyways, I suppose you'd all know the reason for this, it's simply because of how buzy i've been for the month and it's getting a lil' boring typing the same ol' reason out on almost all my posts which appears on every other unsual days.

Recently, the only most exciting thing for the month was celebrating my dad's and the boyfriend's birthday. Interestingly my dad's was just a day before the boyfriend's so since I've got terrible work duties last Sunday, we decided to celebrate it together on my dad's last 4th at Charcoal's. It was the first time my family and I ever ate in that pricy restaurant. haha... we're not too rich to afford such places so we thought of giving it a try for a special reason for such special people. haha...but really, it was worth the try! Got my two special men all satisfied and comfortably full. ahaha...

One thing i'm still crossed about for the month is this: "Megan Fox is a Man!" Like seriously?!? Not that it matters to me coz I'm not really a fan but... seriously?!? It's just awfully weird to even think about but unfortunately got it stuck in my thoughts for weeks after watching Tranformers 2. Don't get me wrong though I thought the movie was just supurb! Great job on the sequel.

Like any normal lady, I've decided to treat myself on a new look for the month. I haven't bothered taking vain pictures yet though coz I've been lazy. I've got my hair dyed again but this time it ain't blond, its red. haha.... i know you must be thinking, "what the hell was she thinking?!" but i've decided to take the risk. How? I don't know, maybe because it was out of stress during the weekend?? haha.. Oh pwehleezz!!! Some women just have to make themselves feel good sometimes ok? like with hair especially. My trusted hairdresser gave me a new shape, too. It's a mixture of Katie Holme's and Kimberly Wyatt's...

Picture it yet? LOL ofcourse these women are farrr more gorgeous but just concentrate on the hair. haha... xP

Anyways, right now I'm yearning for some time off. Scenery: Beach. Sunny. Windy. Hammock. Shady tree. Good Book. Ahh...

Good day everyone! Don't let H1N1 get to you. Stay safe and be happy!

Cheers...

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